It's around this time last year when I was feeling pretty good about myself due that I was able to lose over 50 lbs. But I got too happy about it and excitement carried me away to carefree land where food is synonymous to laughter and bliss. I gained back over 30 pounds and although I pretended that I didn't care about it that much, I got really frustrated.
Oh, but enough is enough. I hate this yo-yo weight loss and I hate how I make myself feel so low because I allow myself to be lazy. I don't want to be a mediocre version of myself. I want to be the best I can be and most of all, I want to be kind to myself. I don't want to unconsciously let time pass me by and then wake up from my stupor and realize that I have cheated myself. I don't want to look back and see a life of regrets.
So maybe it's bordering to obsession lately but I can't help myself. I am realizing that I need to resolve this now and keep this as a lifestyle instead of just a healthy fad that happens to catch my whim.
I have been closely counting and so far, so good. I started exercising again last two weeks ago and I haven't slacked off yet. I have been walking for 1-2 hours everyday for the past two weeks now...this would be my 3rd week. I walk during nighttime because it's cooler and I find the star-freckled velvety blanket of the night sky soothing and relaxing. I would start walking at 10pm. I get out of the house with my dog Charlie (and my sister and my Mom although they're more of just leisurely strolling at ease) walk around our neighborhood several times over until it gets around 11 and then we go home. After securely locking the gate and the door, I'd walk on the inclined treadmill for a good hour while watching reruns(DVD) of my favorite sitcom, Will and Grace.
I have lost over 10 lbs since I've started walking and I have been weighing myself every night. Also, my doctor gave me a Pedometer last week (for free, YAY!) and I've been using it all day. I have it with me during my waking hours. I have been reading about walking as an aid to weight loss and have found out that a good number of steps a person must do to keep healthy (and permanently keep off those pounds you've lost) is 10,000 every day (ON TOP of your daily normal activities). Big thanks to my Doctor and the free pedometer, I have been able to count my steps for the last 5 days. So far, so good. I have been taking over 10,200 steps everyday and it's satisfying to be able to actually see my accomplishments even through just mere numbers on my pedometer's little screen. Also, last Sunday, my mom bought me this Body Fat Analyzer kit and when I tried measuring the percent of fat in my body, I was mortified. 48.6%!!!! That's almost 50%! What have I been doing to my body? I have to change that. I can't just throw away my life...I'm way too young to even have medications!
So I started measuring last Sunday night and it was 48.6% body fat. Then I measured again Monday night after my two hour exercise and hey, it went down to 46.25! It's working! I'm actually seeing results...maybe not yet in dress sizes but even just a tiny victory is victory nonetheless. So tonight, after my walk, I took a shower and measured again and it was down to 43.35! So now, more than ever, I'm really encouraged to keep this up! I am hoping to see that I'll go down to 30s by next week.
I have another appointment with my doctor this Saturday and I am excited! My doctor is very sweet and she's fabulous! I can't wait to see the radiant beam on her face when she gets to see my improvements!
No more Jollibee and McDo burgers and french fries for me...even when I only get to eat them twice a month. So starting right now, I'd have to be content with just looking.
Oh, most gracious GOD and Heavenly Father, please grant me the patience and discipline to see this through. Please put control in me as You are the GOD of control. Please give me wisdom to know better and may you help me take better care of this body, a living temple that You have entrusted to my keeping. May all I do bring glory to Your most holy name, Amen.
Oh, but enough is enough. I hate this yo-yo weight loss and I hate how I make myself feel so low because I allow myself to be lazy. I don't want to be a mediocre version of myself. I want to be the best I can be and most of all, I want to be kind to myself. I don't want to unconsciously let time pass me by and then wake up from my stupor and realize that I have cheated myself. I don't want to look back and see a life of regrets.
So maybe it's bordering to obsession lately but I can't help myself. I am realizing that I need to resolve this now and keep this as a lifestyle instead of just a healthy fad that happens to catch my whim.
I have been closely counting and so far, so good. I started exercising again last two weeks ago and I haven't slacked off yet. I have been walking for 1-2 hours everyday for the past two weeks now...this would be my 3rd week. I walk during nighttime because it's cooler and I find the star-freckled velvety blanket of the night sky soothing and relaxing. I would start walking at 10pm. I get out of the house with my dog Charlie (and my sister and my Mom although they're more of just leisurely strolling at ease) walk around our neighborhood several times over until it gets around 11 and then we go home. After securely locking the gate and the door, I'd walk on the inclined treadmill for a good hour while watching reruns(DVD) of my favorite sitcom, Will and Grace.
I have lost over 10 lbs since I've started walking and I have been weighing myself every night. Also, my doctor gave me a Pedometer last week (for free, YAY!) and I've been using it all day. I have it with me during my waking hours. I have been reading about walking as an aid to weight loss and have found out that a good number of steps a person must do to keep healthy (and permanently keep off those pounds you've lost) is 10,000 every day (ON TOP of your daily normal activities). Big thanks to my Doctor and the free pedometer, I have been able to count my steps for the last 5 days. So far, so good. I have been taking over 10,200 steps everyday and it's satisfying to be able to actually see my accomplishments even through just mere numbers on my pedometer's little screen. Also, last Sunday, my mom bought me this Body Fat Analyzer kit and when I tried measuring the percent of fat in my body, I was mortified. 48.6%!!!! That's almost 50%! What have I been doing to my body? I have to change that. I can't just throw away my life...I'm way too young to even have medications!
So I started measuring last Sunday night and it was 48.6% body fat. Then I measured again Monday night after my two hour exercise and hey, it went down to 46.25! It's working! I'm actually seeing results...maybe not yet in dress sizes but even just a tiny victory is victory nonetheless. So tonight, after my walk, I took a shower and measured again and it was down to 43.35! So now, more than ever, I'm really encouraged to keep this up! I am hoping to see that I'll go down to 30s by next week.
I have another appointment with my doctor this Saturday and I am excited! My doctor is very sweet and she's fabulous! I can't wait to see the radiant beam on her face when she gets to see my improvements!
No more Jollibee and McDo burgers and french fries for me...even when I only get to eat them twice a month. So starting right now, I'd have to be content with just looking.
Oh, most gracious GOD and Heavenly Father, please grant me the patience and discipline to see this through. Please put control in me as You are the GOD of control. Please give me wisdom to know better and may you help me take better care of this body, a living temple that You have entrusted to my keeping. May all I do bring glory to Your most holy name, Amen.
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