if you walk away
then I'll walk away too
i wont remain
if you should ever decide
to part
I will not settle
I will not doubt
walk away and then you'll see

forget
and i shall remember nothing
throw away
and I will not deter
Ignore
and I shall burn
ever ounce of fiber
every string of anything
nothing remains
all is absolute

do not
for a moment
think that you own me
for although thoughts of you
are etched in my mind
your name branded on my skin
i can just as easily shake you off

I will scrape my body if i have to
i will have my wings clipped
i will grow them back
and surely
i can grow myself new skin

so don't you dare
think you can ignore me
that i am at your disposal
for you are a typical fool
and a blissful ignorant
at that

you don't threaten me
for I have already
died a dreamer's death
and for whatever that still binds us now
it can be easily broken

          and remorse?

                    it died along with me
                       when i first bled
                              for you


djf
09/22/08
08:56pm

it's been a while now
since the last time I freely offered my thoughts to you
since the last time I saw the cold remains of a life I once knew
what is your motivation?
what drives your unfortunate flow?
it's in these contemplating hours
I can't decide whether you're a friend or a foe
I think about how you refused me
when I was offered to you more than once
you sly, unwelcome guest
just when the music flows freely
you bow to us
 in shameless assertion to owe you our last dance
it can't be chance, no
you don't work in random chaos
i've watched you toil all my life
you visit in appropriate grace
slithering your way
choking those you touch
like darkness chokes the dead of the night
you leave the living an empty shell
soul-less to greet the birth of light
Death
how much time do I have left?
how many more allotted breaths?

~djf~
09/22/08
06:10 pm